I am including a makeup-free selfie with today’s post because I damn well feel like it. I’ve been sick lately from tampered grocery fare and in a lot of pain so I thought it would improve my self-esteem if I did a bona-fide makeup-free selfie.
It’s not actually a true selfie because one of my kids took the picture but it’s completely free of foundation and all that other stuff and not doctored. Some of my may look at these pictures and see a comparatively attractive and healthy, happy looking young woman. Those of you who are more familiar with our story know my kids and I bear the scars of a prolonged torture including repeated fasting, terror and deprivation. I can’t sustain a permanent state of melancholy because it would be detrimental to the mental health of my already stressed, depressed kids! I have to wear a brave face and that does not mean I am anything but horrified with this situation!!!
I am going to be 45 in March and hope to be celebrating my birthday in a new home for my family because this apartment is increasingly dilapidated and the bathtub is on the verge of falling through the rotting bathroom floor! The landlord tries to blame it on us but this place needed renovations 10 years ago and everyone who lives here complains he takes years to make the most basic repairs. We can literally see into the downstairs neighbor’s bathroom through a hole around the pipe leading to our bathtub, folks! It’s ridiculous!
Three generations of Canadian women in the Halasz family have never owned a house since we emigrated here as WWII refugees, folks! We are a family of extremely hard-working women and it’s not fair that we are blocked from enjoying the privileges we earn because some filthy rich slave-drivers think we still live in the 17th Century! We owned houses before the war, you know! I am told others receive Ontario Disability while they own real estate and hold jobs!
We’ve got all these stupid Hollywood actors running us through the grinder because a large group of co-conspirators who wanted to get down their pants told them they could marry Bill Gates if they were sexier than us (like that’s a huge challenge). I’ve got Tim Burton and Tom Sito stalking me online and forcing everybody in show business and politics to compare my sex appeal to that of Pamela Anderson, so that’s what motivated the disclosure.
They keep encouraging married actors to lure me online to try and nail me for adultery even though I have been separated from my husband for over 7 years, live like a nun, and would be a divorcee if the government didn’t interfere in my private life. Meanwhile I am marginalized while Melinda Gates tries to reform education- an area I specialize in that she hitherto had absolutely no interest in whatsoever! She told everybody I was a former prostitute- when I was probably the least promiscuous girl in my entire high-school and was involved in a monogamous relationship with my ex-husband from the age of 19, prior to our separation. I would like nothing more than to date other men but I can’t do that while this idiot stalks me and invades my privacy! I feel like a circus freak show- I have been forced to disclose health problems caused directly by the terror and stress we’ve been under to prove I am not enjoying the attention, and that’s not terribly sexy stuff!
I took this one instead of a ‘natural look’ selfie to prove to myself I am still human and not dead yet even though my life has been so surreal since all this started when I endeavored to sell my project online all those years ago. Here is how I looked back when this blog was started. That is my normal everyday makeup. I was emaciated back then from the shock of discovering there were cameras in my home and NASA was abusing satellite technology to invade our home. It’s not an easy thing to live with when you value your privacy as much as I do and I never want to get accustomed to it. You need to have that privacy where you can fart and you can scratch your armpits without wondering how many people were watching or you just lose it!
I never discuss my wardrobe with the public like the Royals do- I have more pressing things on my mind. I do not see fashion as my raison d’etre, even if I find it diverting when I am not immersed in my work. I refuse to partake of the culture that paints women as immaculate frivolities. I’m real, damn it, and I refuse to be a cardboard cutout so some idiot with different genitals than I have can feel superior! Genitals are a mere accident of birth, not an excuse to discount other people’s perfectly valid opinions.
WordPress did jack me around a bit when I first began to journal here- there were mysterious programming glitches now and then and for a while I let this blog go to evade persecution, but they are one of the few online services that did not overtly censor my writing and in retrospect I guess that’s somewhere in the realm of honorable.
I’d like to take this opportunity to thank other Twitter users who pressured owners there last week to disclose something resembling the true statistics I get on my post traffic. For so long, all my stats online have been ridiculous fake- stats like ‘zero’ when it’s obvious there are actually tens of millions of people reading what I write, judging from the amount of gossip I see everywhere about all this. People who have never been on the receiving end of that mind-screw cannot begin to grasp the level of gut-wrenching frustration it causes to be blacklisted while others around you do as they please. I’ve said many times to my kids it would be easier to lose everything with a bunch of other people and have others to commiserate with than it was for us to go through all that grief with such a profound sense of isolation.
I doubt these stats are accurate- it’s probably only the tip of the iceberg but since my account is private, Twitter wants to avoid a law suit so they are keeping it modest at 17.3K interactions in the last month or so. You see, I have only one follower, my son, and I follow only about 130 people so stats like that are basically an admission that Twitter is letting a ton of people hack my account without my consent. (“Interactions” means hits, or people clicking on my tweets.)
This basically proves I am not a ghost; my “paranoid delusions” are factual observations and I do not have a persecution complex, nor am I “insane” as Dilbert Cartoonist Scott Adams tried to claim after I refused to sell my comic to his publisher- not because they are American per se, but because the representative who approached me online to buy my project freaked me out and gave me the major creeps.
I would like people to try and comprehend that my family’s privacy means everything to us and I never gave initial consent to have it disregarded. Only once it was already being grossly impeded did I suggest perhaps some of those listening in on short-wave radio might serve as witnesses that we are not the monsters Melinda Gates would have people believe all these years. For many years, she spread the most damaging falsehoods all over the internet through thinly-veiled innuendo while we floundered without community support or government services, and had no idea people even knew who we were. I also didn’t have a clue she existed, or knew that I did. You can’t defend yourself against odds like that.
It has come to light at last that the woman and her husband are employees of Prince Charles and his mother- and this explains why the Crown seems completely impervious to resolving this scenario through proper legal channels. They have no legal right to invade our privacy and they are afraid it might come out if we were to be granted a legal team to defend our rights.
I don’t want to fight with anyone, I don’t wish to rehash anything or explain myself ad anfinitum to people who like to waste others’ time. I’m sick and tired of people presuming themselves upon us and borrowing our thoughts from the privacy of our home as though these are free for the taking. They most certainly are not! If Pope Francis agrees with everything I say he can bloody well do it on my terms instead of treating me like I am a ghost! He can pay us a consultant fee and so can all the other parrots!
Copyright law doesn’t even enter into this picture- it falls under police surveillance law and basically, they are only allowed to intercept radio signals in private domiciles if they can prove they are conducting security exercises. In other words the onus would be on police to prove they invaded our privacy as a means to protect us and I’m not sure all that insult and injury would weigh in favor of such an argument. (This lunacy has been going on in the name of espionage ever since Tesla was killed for the technology.)
It would then lie on police bosses, who would then point fingers at their superiors, and the blame would go all the way up the chain of command until it became evident the Crown was responsible because they knew what transpired and did nothing to put a top to it. At the end of the day, it doesn’t matter what their excuses are when we are in pain that never lets up for so many years without relief! In view of this rather awkward reality, I feel a sizable monetary settlement is in order to compensate my family for 20 years of living hell, suffering and injury that resulted from the Crown’s criminal negligence and competition law infringements. (For the record, I am following Camilla on Twitter having banned Prince Charles’ anonymous Twitter account for chronic sexual harassment many months ago and I don’t think he is sober enough to discern sexual interest from absolute terror.)
I don’t care where the money comes from. I feel the provinces of Quebec, British Columbia and Ontario owe us because the rental courts failed us so spectacularly and our human rights were denied us. Quebec owes us a special debt because of time I was forced to spend in prison as a young honor student- 6 long months in maximum security prison when they claimed there was no room for me elsewhere after I said I wanted to leave home and sort my thoughts out at the age of 14. I was never arrested, never charged with a crime.
Melinda French, several years my senior, was just bent out of shape because her future husband was a little bit too interested in my life so she saw an opportunity to bend my circumstances in favor of her own prospects. This was when computers were still in their infancy. My old highschool friend Melissa Mundel (front and center), owned an early model Apple computer and we had a few PCs in our computer lab but few of us had them at home. Here I am (pictured far right in the back row) in Montreal’s Trafalgar School for Girls where I won full academic scholarship due to exceptional performance on my entrance exams.
I feel my own prospects were stolen from me by the Quebec Government and they should feel obligated to compensate my Grandmother as well for sabotage that resulted in a tremendous amount of suffering in her life- most recently because employees of the Windsors poured water on the floor beside her bed while she was being treated in hospital for epilepsy.
The Federal Government became complicit in this scandal when PM Harper refused to touch this and ignored my pleas for help, then accepted large sums of money from Bill & Melinda Gates while my son was illegally detained. I’d like to show you all the scars he has on his back from malnutrition and chemical poisoning during his most recent kidnapping and forcible confinement in foster care. Never had a stretch mark in his life prior to this 7 month-long grueling torture the government of Ontario saw fit to subject us to! He returned home with flat feet, a curved spine and a cancerous tumor on his uvula and significant psychological trauma we are still working many months later to heal. They went on several vacations while he ran around in shoes that were 2 sizes too small and ripped to ribbons- the Ontario Government gave his foster parents my Child Tax Benefits checks plus a clothing allowance and over $1100 a month while they kept him from us and they probably also claim tax deductions on foster kids.
We are still waiting for a reply from the people in charge of Ontario Disability whom I wrote many months ago, and they are still playing games with our Social Assistance checks and dietary allowance. They owe us tens of thousands of back pay for grocery money they never gave us because the doctors refused to sign the papers we needed to get access to the program for those with allergies and health problems that require more expensive groceries.
Before you accuse us of freeloading on taxpayers because we accept government handouts to survive, please understand we were robbed of our own means to survive while this government fed freely from our intellectual property all these years without pay or acknowledgment. That, and the Hamilton, Ontario municipal government stole our SUV, with a resale value of $10,000. Over 50,000.00 in additional private property was stolen by an old landlord a few years ago. This occurred because the Chair of the Ontario Landlord & Tenant Board is a Chinese immigrant with refugee status who helps the government import class A drugs into the country, which is the reason our enemies were able to blackmail her into blacklisting us no matter how strong our evidence against that landlord for negligence and criminal harassment.
We’re still living in a sub-par slum in an apartment that’s too small and denied the most basic services, and we’re still living in terror- biding our time between poisonings and various forms of bureaucratic persecution. I’m still having the terms of my former marriage dictated by bureaucracy. You can see how swollen my face and arms are in this new Christmas portrait- I don’t sleep much these days from moral exhaustion and worry, and the kids and I have regular discussions about how to stave off that feeling of utter futility that makes suicide seem like a viable lifestyle decision. I honestly don’t know how we made it through this far under such an insane amount of inhuman stress!
I didn’t ask for any of this and when I spoke to people when I first arrived online, I did not mean for my words to be interpreted the way they were. If I had known what was going on I would have found some other way to help people- a way that did not place my loved ones and I in such jeopardy! I still cannot believe others were so foolish as to think for a passing second that we might sacrifice so many years of our lives to the cause of complete strangers who apparently have no idea the meaning of human compassion!
I’m not asking for anything I have not earned in terms of executive pay from the various companies who profited as a direct result of the insane work schedule thrust upon me. Our suffering at the hands of government is a separate matter and ought to be properly addressed in order to help us recover from the indignity of losing our lives and autonomy for so long. It’s never going to be a reality show. It’s always going to be a very surreal and painful part of our lives that ought never have happened! All those years spent in such misery will never be returned. My children’s childhoods were stolen and so was mine so it’s the least people can do is to quit taking advantage of loopholes to sustain this inhuman torture!
We can’t recover if we are not properly compensated and in order to do this we need retroactive compensation that pays us what we ought to have made throughout this exploitative scenario. We should never have been targeted in the first place and it’s time we saw more than just talk from our leaders. We are sick and tired of being exploited by greedy politicians who wish to win elections yet do nothing to address the issues underlying our family’s economic struggles. We were well on our way to success when we were brutally sabotaged in total breech of competition agreements between Canada, Britain and the USA. We must see a complete about-face in the behavior of Canadian and US bureaucrats in favor of financial stability for our family so we can regain our health and sense of security on a permanent basis!